viernes, 29 de noviembre de 2013

Cuando se va a fijar realmente a mi?
Cuando me va a dar lo que realmente necesito?
Cuando va a estar físicamente, moralmente y psicologicamente para mi?
Me lo nombras y mi sonrisa florece de oreja a oreja, mi corazón comienza a latir a mil, las mariposas emprenden sus alas y hacen cosquillas en mi estomago. Día a día, hora a hora, minuto a minuto, segundo a segundo... me siento más enamorada. Es de ese amor que de día te ilumina, y el sol te pica en la piel y de noche es de esas tormentas que relampaguea amor explotando en un trueno audible llegando al granizo, hielo y electroshocks. 
Déjenlo descansar en paz si no es, no lo hagas llorar. 
Déjalo ir, déjalo ser.  Déjalo amar sin llorar. 
Pobrecito, ya sangró mil horas sin parar, ya se atormento en mil noches de oscuridad.
No dejes que caiga de nuevo, sostenlo en lo alto sonriendo.
Haciendolo feliz, lagrimeando de felicidad.

lunes, 25 de noviembre de 2013

No puedo.  No puedo creer lo enamorada que estoy. No puedo explicar las distintas emociones que siento, esa mezcla de amor, felicidad y dolor. Amor porque lo amo, felicidad porque siento que nos pertenecemos y dolor porque el no sabe demostrar ni darme el tiempo que necesito.

viernes, 22 de noviembre de 2013

I am so sad. I want my ex have a good life but I really do not think that. I just want him to think about me, to suffer what I suffered because of his fault. I want him to feel sorry and I want him to never find a girl like me. I want her more ugly and disgusting and I want that his parents see her more more more more ugly and disgusting, so worse that it will make them to miss me. But they are not going to have me there again, never again. And I am sorry of this thought, because on the other hand I do not like to be like this, I would like to learn to forgive and let live, but I can´t. I will try. God forgive me and no punish me anymore.
Again me. Yes, what tiring ! 
Everything is OK. He talks to me, he seems to be caring of me... but as regards love, nothing here, nothing there. Yes, I am content with chat and with this but I want more. So I lied, I am not going anywhere but I want him to realize if I am important or not, so suppose that I am, he will try to make me stay here and he will try to hurry up with things and I think that is what he needs... just a little push. A white lie.
I want you to understand why I did that. I really want this. I want love, like movies, but not for 2 hours.... I want it forever. I am sure that he is the one. The one and only. I want him to realize how beautiful is love,  that everything is better with a company, doing things in two. Please, forgive me. But it is for a good reason. I am sure that everything will be alright, everything will go according with my plans and I am sure that you, my superior, support my project, my little project with happy ending. Be by my side. 

domingo, 17 de noviembre de 2013

How should I start?... It is so difficult, and more when it comes to talking about life...even when we talk about love is so hard! Damn! I would like to be a rock: no feelings, no tears, no smiles ! 
Here we go...
Did you see that moment when you need a especial dinner?, did you see that moment when you need somebody for crying with you, holding your hands, giving you kisses and hugs? But that person has to be the love of your life, that person who will pass with you all your moments... 
The thing I appreciate more is Love, a Man´s love... that is the  only thing I don´t have. Fuck Life. Why? Why Damn it, why?. 
I have an Ex. Fuck him, he made me feel  a lot of pain, I spent endless nights crying, praying, shouting inside my mind, blaming me, suffering...for nothing. But there he goes, asking me to return... how naive you are. Go and fuck yourself. 
So I became a Rock. I did not care about people´s feelings. I went ahead till one day I met an other man who made revive my love´s fires. The one that makes me unable to sleep. The one who has the ability of make me cry or laugh. But....( life has a lot of ¨buts¨) he does not have time for falling in love, REALLY?  WHAT MOTHERFUCKER DOES NOT HAVE TIME FOR FALLING IN LOVE? the most beautiful thing of the world. And then me, here again with the heart to burst. So what the hell is going on? When will be my moment? while some people has a new love every month, I crying because I don´t find anyone who fix me. 

viernes, 15 de noviembre de 2013

I hope Life will join us forever 
because we belong together.
I just want him to return to my arms,
I know he will come back...
our thing has to last forever,
 like Eternity

jueves, 7 de noviembre de 2013

Me va a llamar. Vamos a aclarar el panorama. Y vamos a ir por ahí, juntos... felices. 

lunes, 4 de noviembre de 2013

Y aquí estoy... de nuevo, desahogándome. Llorando esas palabras que no supe decir. Escondiendo ese dolor en la oscuridad. Atormentándome con esas preguntas que siempre serán un dilema en mi vida. 
¨ A dónde voy?, a dónde llegaré?, qué pasará?¨

sábado, 2 de noviembre de 2013

No lo quise así. No pude hacer florecer mis dotes de la seducción. Jamas me hicieron sentir tan miserable como aquella noche. Tenia un plan y se destrozo en dos segundos. Yo lo quería retener en mi paraíso y el me acorralo en el suyo.